One week after I removed my casts... I feel useless. I still can’t move my limbs properly. I am not able to do much on my own and I hate it. I never liked the idea of relying on other people. That’s why old age seems like a frightening scenario. The tiniest movement is causing me pain.
I tend to forget that I am not supposed to do sudden moves or twist my wrist. While I had the cast on, it prevented me to do any move. Now, without it, I have the freedom of movement but if I am not careful enough, I end up in tears. Sometimes the pain is very intense and I am not able to hide my tears.
This afternoon I had my skin laxity. Since it was a gorgeous weather outside, I decided to walk instead of driving. When I looked at the map, I saw that it would take me forty minute of walking to get there. It did not sound that bad. I used to walk for couple of hours a few years ago.
Thus I got myself ready and left the house around 10:30 A.M. I really enjoyed the walk. When I reached the clinic, I did not feel tired at all. I was thirsty. I had finished the bottle of water I had taken with me. Luckily there was a water dispenser in the lobby.
Once my appointment was done, my head felt much lighter. Most of the pressure on my head was gone which made me feel happier. When I am happier, like anyone else, I pay more attention to my surroundings. I notice things that I would not regularly see or hear.
On my way way back I noted that the leafs are already falling. Most of trees were changing the color of their foliage. I saw couple of flocks of geese flying on the beautiful blue sky. I heard them first, then I saw them. The first flock was flying lower and the geese were quite loud.
I congratulated myself for taking a long walk. If I would have been driving, I would have not seen any of these small little things I was enjoying. I would have missed the show nature was displaying. Not too mention that the exercise helped me have a good nap. I did not it in a few years. As soon as I got home, I laid down on the couch and dozed off for half an hour.